Like nearly every day is depressing! Miss even hearing her voice n knowing she doesn’t love me any more :( going out with the guys getting drunk doesn’t help me thinking bout her even more, like wtf? I’ve even had girls hit on me n want to go home with me n I still said yer no thanks hoe -_- I dono y I jus love her tht much! I don’t even know how to deal with it day to day ? I guess its jus gonna hurt so much for a long long time…. Hurts even more to find out she’s so over me and moved onto the next guy?…… I dono? I wana get wen I wake up on the right side of the wrong bed and never an excuse I made up tell you the truth that it what didn’t kill me … It never made me stronger at all …. I know ill never hold you like i used to.. Thinking bout auditioning for the voice or x factor or Aussie got talent? Think I’ll do Gd?
Thts all you did come to think of it? Lied to me all this time for months . Then just threw me away like garbage. Hope your happy I can’t speak to u anymore, hope ur happy u don’t have to deal with guilt of knowing how much I still love u, miss u, want to be with u -_- …… I’m sure life is good -_- I’m sure ur falling for sum guy pretty quick. Psh watever. You stabbed my heart twice as hard as I stabbed yours ….. Mine was accident…. Hah! Guess urs wasnt?
Why do I over think and panic? … Do i? :( am I? Is it a good thing or a bad thing? To be prepared for the worst by asking ? … Or is it really not helping the situation? ….. Still! :( wen u sit ther and think of all the worst things tht cud n wud happen? U can’t help to react stupidly -_- hoping she still appreciates, loves and misses u :’(